tumblr_m12d7tt3MP1qlw8hmo1_500 Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me - psalm 42:7

it's fitting isn't it that a few hours before I fly out for one of my biggest faith-adventures yet my conscious would feel as if wave upon wave were crashing down upon me.

Failure. when your funds don't come in you'll be a failure, better start planning now. Appearance. you're not trendy or skinny or desirable and you won't fit in. Lack of Provision. you're not worth supporting. Inadequacy. you don't have what it takes. Ineptitude. you're not cut out for this.

All of these lies tearing at my courage. The thoughts of how much easier it is to just stay home. hold a job. have money.

all of these things just proof that where I am going is EXACTLY where I am supposed to be headed. The opposition I am facing, while painful, is nothing compared to what's ahead.

I will go forward.

TRUTH: Failure is not an option, or possible with Jesus Christ. I am beautiful and wild and my heart is set on him: 1 Peter 3:3-4, I Samuel 16:7 The one who calls you is faithful and HE WILL DO IT. 1 Thess 5:24 God has called me and that means I'm ready, regardless of how I feel. He made me for this.